Paris Fashion Week, day 4 :
Dear Barbara Martelo. Seeing you yesterday, in that rainy and grey day with your little adorable daughter was the sun that was missing to that day. I watched you coming in my direction, chit chatting together, smiling to each other, fulfilled with love and tenderness to each other was the most beautiful think this Paris fashion week has ever offered me so far. Single, with not girl friend and children, in that moment, your relationship with your daughter was all I can dream of, beyond fame and fortune for my personal life. Having a child, giving him the love I would have loved to received from my parents, giving him or her the education and the values that I carry would be a life time achievement.
After we met yesterday, I stopped taking pictures for 10 min : I was still envisioning my futur with my children : it was beautiful. I was about to post hundreds amazing pictures of numerous sweet moment from my first days of Paris fashion week, but I preferred to focus on you and your daughter alone. Why ? Because you made me realized that it was time for me to share with my readers what I already shared on Instagram few week ago : my apology to my futur child.
“Dear you who are not born yet because I haven’t met your mother yet, I owe you an apology.
I postponed the day of our encounter because I thought that my life would be better without you until I have the financial ressources to take care of a family and you especially. I always thought that my financial freedom will be the key to my Happiness.
But aging, the more I think about it, the more I believe my father, your grand’ Pa was right. He told me countless times that having children while young will help me to focus, to take the right decisions and therefore achieve the financial success he always believed I would achieve. Up to last year, you’ve never been my priority because I’ve alway considered you as a burden rather than THE solution to my financial success.
At 40, I am still running after this financial success and I feel shameful. I feel shameful because as surprising as it might sound to you, what I miss the most is not money, it’s YOU.
I’ve read a very inspirational wise quote few days ago on Instagram : « The happiest people don’t have the best of everything, they make the best of everything ».
I should have made the best of my life instead of waiting for the best conditions. I postponed your arrival in my life because I was a coward. It was yesterday. But I changed and you have no idea how I will make it up to you. Expect to be surprised everyday. And if I miss one day, make me read this post again.
You futur blessed super dad”
– Kamel –
To you who have been following me for years, you have no idea how your support helped me through the toughest years of my life. And for those of you who are discovering Style and the City, I hope that it will offer you the journey that it still offering it to me. Have the life and happiness you deserve my friends.
On Monday, I will post hundreds of great moments and emotions. Be patient, it’s worth it ! Meanwhile, follow me on INSTAGRAM : 3 stories per day to enjoy and share !